LoveBlog - Thy Will Be Done
We are co-creators in our lives. We have a say and we also have Gods plan. Together we make a beautiful piece of stained glass artwork that can enhance any space. Our story-lines are not exactly set in stone. We have the desired outcome and lessons we need to learn along the way. There will be people that come into our lives when we need them. Whether the exchange is loving or challenging, sometimes even heartbreaking. I am reminded and I try to remind others; we can learn our lessons in a loving way. Still, there are some lessons that can only be learned through heartache or heartbreak. Growth that can only happen through seeing the shadow parts of ourselves, along with others. The shadow self comes to the surface to heal so that we can move forward and grow. Which brings us to today’s Love Tip, Let go and Let God.
Let go and let God does not mean you don't do the work or put in the effort. You do and you should. If you really listen and reflect, you'll see that things do happen for a reason. That the lows will catapult you to your wonderful life full of possibilities. Where once you feel small or stagnate, you will feel renewed, large and alive if you allow it. It's hard to do this. That's why not everyone does.
It's not easy to let go and let God. It's not easy to let go. It’s not easy to be open. It’s not easy to have an idea of how your life should be or what it should look like and then have that assumption come apart. To be open to what is from your spirit self and not from your ego self, is truly where you will see the most wonderful changes occur in your life. To be open to being cracked open so that you can truly see what you are made of is a gift.
I was brought up Catholic but I consider myself spiritual not wanting to put a label on my beliefs because I feel that's not inclusive. Saying I belong to one group, separates me from others. I don't want to be separated, I want to feel connected. We are all children of God. I struggled with my faith for a long time. Especially after my assault. If you have been reading my writing for years, you would know I was assaulted at the age of 16. After my assault, I wondered what many in any traumatic position have thought, “Why did this happen to me?” “Am I bring punished?” After the fact, I thought God abandoned me. While I was being assaulted, I do remember a few moments when I felt God was with me. I felt God "save" me sort of speak from the pain that was being inflicted upon my body. I felt myself being removed from my body. Still, I was a teenager and not understanding what was occurring with my body and my mind, then my spirit also wavered.
My dreams have always been very powerful and continue to become more powerful, as I get older. I find in my dreams I have no ego. Which makes allowing myself to feel or believe something easier. The questions I struggle with in my waking life, have clarity in my dreams. When I need answers, I will look to my dreams because of my lack of ego. I know what I am being shown is from the spirit and my heart of hearts where true love and no judgment is held. My junior or senior year in high school I had a dream that allowed me to find my faith again. I was riding around in a car with friends, we were acting like teenagers; causing trouble and getting into trouble when the car went over a cliff. I held onto the side of the cliff for dear life and I began to pray to God to help me. "Please save me God" I said as I felt my fingertips lose their grip and the sand begin to crumble under my hands. I saw a great white light cascade over me and fill up my sight. I felt warm, comforted and at peace. I woke up calm and in a way, renewed. After I lost my faith, that's the true moment I believed in God and what God means within my life.
My mother once said to me that faith is not taught, it's caught. My assault changed my trajectory. As a child, I wanted to grow up to be a mother and a wife. After my assault, my purpose changed. If I hadn’t been assaulted, I know I would have been married soon after high school. Because of the change in my purpose I have gone on to travel the world, live all over the country, connect to those I would have never connected to and help others heal in ways I would have never imagined. I have often said, “I have loved enough for a thousand lifetimes.” And I have and continue to love and find love within my life. I hope you do as well. I hope you realize you are a co-creator in your life. Listen to your heart and always chose love. This is my wish for you.
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PS. I love this song by Hillary Scott and her family. She wrote this song after she experienced a miscarriage. It's a very powerful song that brings tears to my eyes. Video here